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““Energy Weapon” is a bit of a redundant misnomer, innit?

A weapon inflicts force, compelled by some form of energy or another. Kinetic, chemical, whatever it is, it’s all energy. As far as I can tell, everything involving energy, which is everything, can be weaponized by intentionally causing it to inflict force upon another. These days, in this part of the world, those forces are rarely visible or obvious, as with a bullet or a bomb.

Here we wield weaponized words, stories, sounds, social conventions, standards, practices and gadgets. Formula, food, mood, media, magnets, bodies, brains and business. Government, education, research, lights, likes, looks and electronics. Even the category of “Unseen Energy Weapons” is too vast, vague and disorganized. A more sophisticated mode of description is required. Perhaps a new paradigm by which to describe it.

My logic and speech has been groomed to sound fanatical. The process of trying to correct it is quite the mind bender. It’s like saying “there is no spoon” to bend the bars of a psychological cage that you understand to be simultaneously schroedinger-ing, “is” and “is not”.

Does it require awareness and intention to differentiate a weapon from a hazard? Dealing with such a nebulous unknown at the crux of such a crucial categorization, often directing its own confluence of forces, has itself become a concept subject to weaponization.

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All those times I’d been “drugged”, I shouldn’t have had to start by knowing whether or not someone had slipped something into my drink, something essentially unknowable in most cases to the afflicted. There are other ways a person could be influenced with such force. Those subjected to the kind of effects we ascribe to the more obvious and physical poisoning could be explained many other ways. The triage of validity of the afflicted should not rely upon which story they and those around them tell.

Perhaps it behooves us more to focus on the effects first and work back through inquiry toward addressing a cause.

“You lost control and consciousness of your body in an instant without reasonable explanation?”

*poof* that should be all a person needs to be cared for and taken seriously. The access to inquiry of the cause should not rest upon a sales spin from a person whose head is still spinning.

When I blacked out last week after 2 beer, people were quick to caution that I’d likely been drugged. Their version of the nightmare bombarding me, making me scared of my fellow man, while I knew that my drinks never left my hand, which never left several lines of sight. If it was straightforward, dropped chemical poisoning in my drink, the doer would have to be exceptionally slick, which I know my oppressors to be, however so much so that they would not rely upon something so traceable, though those whom they influence might.

I have to listen to other people tell me I was probably drugged and should take myself to a doctor and I never get to say what I think… it was the same back when I used to think I’d been drugged, people thought better of another story of proportionate disregard to my own.

I think I was inflicted with force by other means, and I’ve got good reasons not to discuss those theories with the average western doctor, though I think these concerns certainly should be their business. I’ve got good reasons not to share them here, either. The point is that many things could have caused my fainting spell, and if denied the means to determine a cause, I should not have to live further subjected to the force of the story that I’m not safe to have a drink at a bar with my friend when that may be an egregiously fallacious framework. The force of the fear does much more harm than the fainting. In this way, folks who wish to demonstrate care can inadvertently enact harm, as though helicopter parents rushing to a child who has stumbled, who was fine until learning from their parent’s reflective reaction that they were not.

The energy that rushed me out of the bar and into the cab alone only to be guilted the next day for not seeing myself to a doctor, was a confluence of forces which overshadowed the harm of the event it responded to. The expectation to go to authorities alone when the last time she tried, they refused to test her tainted tea, and incarcerated her and her dog for trying – was another unseen weapon. But it was invisible. It was unintentional by those who were directly and apparently involved. Does that mean it was impossible that it involved unconventional weaponization ? I don’t think so. “Indirect Energy Weapons” seemed closer than “Directed”, how many of which adjectives is this going to take? Can the English Language as it is reasonably tackle this problem?

As ever, the problem is that I am left alone with such considerations, my alienation affirmed whenever I try to breach such subjects with those whose minds are resistant to think quite so much, in such ways, about such things. I don’t suppose I can imagine why anyone would if they hadn’t lived through what I have lived through. Maybe they will catch on 7 years from now, to remain distracted from whatever matters are pressing then. Society seems at a perpetual lag with such understandings. Not 15 years ago, people abjectly disbelieved the gravity of domestic violence against women. Now they’re still clueless, but they’ll simultaneously talk about the outdated or scapegoat versions ad nauseum, performing a false understanding with true conviction. It is, in a sense, to travel through time without a meter, to navigate how up or down to date a given individual, group or institution is with current events, science, technology, tactics and their applicability, and through which language and lense.

Sometimes I think about going to authorities and offering to build a couple prototypes and proofs of concept just to get them up to speed on what I can, but what authority could I possibly trust to bring them to? My efforts run the risk of weaponized energy here, too.

“Energy Vampires” are energy weapons. Human beings subject to so much suffering that it radiates, causing negative associations with them and all they represent. The banner children of victim blaming. Historical Victims rewritten in real time into villains. The story about them becomes a weapon as well. We are the ones who many “love to hate”, not seeing how they are weaponized in the process. No adult left who has been adulterated by weaponized tech is innocent, (unless ignorance is absolution, which would itself be vulnerable to weaponization) none feel aware, safe or able to face their guilt. In these personalized perceptual blindspots, collectively individuated, segregated, discordant and dissonant from our causes and effects, we are all in great danger of being quite dangerous.

If man made so much of this world in his image, then everything becomes hackable tech to those who can hijack the mind. When you control a computer, you control everything it controls. Ditto for brains, which computers were made to model. It is uncertain at this point, and I believe greatly varied, as to who or what is in a greater position of influence, between the person and the devices they find themselves attached to.”

X often wondered how people expected to know they’d been hacked. Do they expect a cartoon troll to take over the screen and introduce itself? The answer from her asking was that nobody surveyed had really thought of it. Neither had she until she’d nearly been murdered by these unseen forces. Now she seldom thought of anything else. It was frustrating to her that it was all very logical and viable, all very scientifically provable, and as urgent as anything could be, but she felt she would do better to have been muttering about demons in the streets because she couldn’t seem to find anyone who really knew what she was on about. Ignorance was as weaponized a force as any.

“Hell, even my banjo is an energy weapon, as perpetually out of tune as I am out of practice. All the world hums to a tune, and I’m so discordant, I throw the whole thing off. The world seeks harmony by removing me if I will not hold the tune, as I seem so retarded in doing.”

So much more of anthropology seemed to come down to energetics, to physics, than what we call psychology. As with the Rohrshack test, everything can be a weapon if you look at it like a weapon. She wished anyone would listen to victims as a means of catching the perpetrators. Nobody could see potential for weaponization like they could. Unfortunately investigators tended to take their cues from the people they were meant to be catching, and in this way, they never will, giving the illusion that the predators just don’t exist and we just cry wolf for attention, another energetic force which may be subject to doing harm.