Trauma & Recovery P6

“I learned that Washington never told a lie
I learned that soldiers seldom die 
I learned that everybody’s free 
And that’s what the teacher said to me  
That’s what I learned in school today 
That’s what I learned in school 

What did you learn in school today, dear little boy of mine? 
What did you learn in school today, dear little boy of mine? 

I learned that policemen are my friends 
I learned that justice never ends 
I learned that murderers pay for the crimes 
Even if we make a mistake sometimes 
That’s what I learned in school today 
That’s what I learned in school 

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Going back to Trauma and Recovery by Judith Herman, because it’s the best book I’ve read in a very long – well, I don’t know, I can’t really hold it in comparison to anything else because it changed my life, so, I’ve got a bias there. 

We talk about sharing tactics, how perpetrators like to do this. It’s very common throughout popular media which programs standard social conventions. They don’t make much mention of why. It’s not like they’re just like nice guys trying to help each other out, just some sense of community, just, you know, wanna make sure everybody has the best practices. It’s not. Cute idea, though.

One thing it is, is camouflage. One could also turn some tactics into little Trojan Horses – you can pass your competitors some tactics that seem very well to work at first, but there’s some time release effects. So, maybe they’re sharing tactics with you that they themselves use but they’ll make some slight little alterations, even just as a sort of watermark. So, to my victims of entrapment out there, I suggest you make an alterations of your own – or don’t use them because they’re a trap. I’m speaking on all that information on the internet on how to hack each other, all this, people putting up fucking spy cameras on each other and other creepy paranoid shit, that is, you know, where the terrorism of the cyber crimes going on starts to look like homeland terrorism. Acting like it’s an international issue may just be good camo via sharing hacked maps and tactics.

They’re not just sharing these tactics with other criminals. They’re certainly sharing them with people they hope to make into criminals – ’cause that’s how you get the soldiers in this particular system of oppression. See, once you’ve gotten these people to betray their own values, they’ve got less to fight for they’ve got less fight in them. You’ve got them guilty of something that can ruin their life and then they will do whatever they have to do not to get caught. Survivalism kicks in and their ethics have already been railroaded by being caused to betray themselves. So, what to fight for? Especially when the world is so divisive and antagonistic to those who have done wrong. Not really thinking in remedial restorative terms, yet. 

So, who do they share tactics with? Well, now it’s everybody. It evolved to the point of being prevalent in our media, in our schools, hospitals, police stations, all of our institutions, all of our standards and practices have been influenced. It’s evident. Everybody’s got a problem. Everybody knows there’s something gone very wrong about how our government is working, we just all have this idea that we disagree on how that is, when each of us holds perspective that is a part of the whole. 

This sharing of tactics is pretty dangerous. From the targeted victims perspective, it makes it seem as though everybody is in on it. You go to the cops and you start crying, and you should be allowed to cry in front of a cop, they’re supposed to protect you from the bad guys, and then you’re a victim of brutality and incarceration for trying to turn to them in the first place. Well, at first you would think these cops were bad guys. At first you would think they’re downright criminals. Some of them certainly are. Although, what is a criminal but somebody who breaks a law? When the laws are being made by monsters… well they’re not being made by monsters, they’re being made by people, influenced by people who have been reduced to monstrous iterations of themselves. 

I think there can be healing for all, but when our system continues to blame victims and victimized people, marginalized people and never really do that much about it, just continuing to deflect back to the victims, asking, “How can you protect yourself better? How can you dress differently? How can you take accountability for this so you can move on with your life?” Fair enough, in a way. From an individuals perspective, while disempowered and no with no real justice available, yes, what can you do? But you wouldn’t have to keep dealing with rampant crime rates if you’d stop blaming them on victims – well, not crime rates. If the if the rates weren’t juked, they would be rampant crime rates. What we think is our criminal issues here is really just based on what the bad guys dictate should be criminalized, which is usually their victims, so they don’t get caught. Reactive abuse, we always seem to go for the lowest common denominator, never really looking a rung higher. It’s a real shame, ’cause we could actually do some stuff with our taxpayer dollars on all that crime enforcement we’re supposed to have. 

We could actually heal some of the illnesses that allow certain of our most hated crimes to go on, but we’ll talk about pedophilia on another episode, because it deserves its own topic. I mean, we think it’s the most evil thing out there, right? So, what do we do about it? Keep throwing stones at the lowest rung on the ladder? Or do we look a little higher about why they exist? People ask why anybody would give drugs to children, why anybody would do these things. There are answers. We should ask that question like there are answers. There’s very good reasons. Not good in effect or cause, but technically valid. We’ll go into how pedophiles are made later, and why tactics are shared with children. 13 year olds, 12 year olds, younger, can Google how to hack you and execute it pretty well. If you’re a victim of a hacker good luck finding anything to really help you, other than more ways to spend money on services that won’t help you, if anything possibly make you less secure.

I had a person a part of raising me who used to say “goof” a lot. It was weird to me when I found out it meant pedophile, because this is a person who doesn’t think that kind of thing is funny, doesn’t think it’s a joking matter, doesn’t think it’s the people he’s referring to. Somebody influenced him with that phrase, someone kind of slid that in there, because what happens is when you take these very important terms to describe the issues and you turn them into misused slang, and manipulate their use into misuse, into meaning the opposite of what it means, well, then when a victim tries to come to you about, well what are some offensive words? “Oppression”. I mean, even saying “hacker” to the likes of these cops and doctors is just like, “this crazy one over here thinks people can get into her computer. /eyeroll” Meanwhile we don’t police that, anyways. What else did he used to say? “Treat a woman like a dog and she’ll be your best friend.” From a person who tried to raise me to be very self respecting, expected that for me, wanted that for me, did a lot for that for me. So, where were these statements coming from that contradicted their own ethics? They’ve been slid in there as something funny to say. What that does is it kind of like warms up the frying pan, slowly, in a way where people become familiarized with these concepts but then misapply them in a way that muddies their meaning and how important they are to describe the real problems. 

It’s in your social media, it’s in all of your TV shows, for sure. I reckon these guys can watch the same TV shows as you and share tactics intentionally that way by just being able to see it through a different lens. I gain hop here. Once people understand the mechanisms of abuse and how they work, they don’t work the same anymore. I can trust that I don’t need to …. I can’t just trust it, I do have to be a little active, considering I’ve got a little bit of unique perspective, let’s say that’s what it is. 

I was talking to somebody the other day who was referring to somebody being “indoctrinated”. I believe the subject likely is being manipulated, but referring it to it as indoctrination was tough for me to swallow. As somebody with a more familiar history with indoctrination there’s a part of me that feels offense to that, you know, but then, I think about all the people who feel offended by hearing me speak and use words that they would assume, without context, are inappropriate to use, and how this is happening to all of us. My language issues, my confusion about how to speak is not mine alone, it’s ours. We’re all having it, we are dealing with the Tower of Babel effect. We were starting to gain some understanding that could lead to our liberation if unchecked, and so “God” smashed the tower down and gave us all different languages, but more clever so than letting us know we speak different languages, we think we speak the same one. It leads to a lot of misunderstanding. So, if we can calibrate that language, start to take more integrity in our speech, but first we’d have to correct for all of the massive misunderstanding. So, this person is referring to it in as indoctrination and I feel this recoil like, “that’s not what you mean”. On the other hand, when I look around and see that everyone is affected by this, and that fascism is present and something to be concerned for, well, “indoctrination” is actually a much more appropriate word than I think she was even intending to use. The difficulty is of one not even understanding how serious the words that they’re using are. Even myself I have been through quite the humiliation ritual. I’ve been through quite a serious amount of rejection and invalid discredit and punishment for speaking honestly while mixinformed. My truth. Some of it downright is our shared reality, our shared truth. No way to get clear on the objective until there’s consensus, I supposed. 

It’s offensive to say “slavery” if you’re not referring to that one horrible part of history, and that keeps us from discussing how these things could be present, what our iteration of that looks like. I’m sure we could come up with a new word, better than “trafficking” which was employed to make the notion more palateable, ordinary and confused, but switching terms is tricky, too.

I had a real heartbreaking moment when I started to look at Indigenous services and realized I had to be bouncing between “aboriginal”, “indigenous”, “metis”, “native”, “Indian”, like whichever word,  and all of these groups get very scattered, not working together. Distinct. Individual. Divided. The continuous process of taking the historical term, making it offensive, and I guess it likely has offensive origins as much of our language does, as our history which it comes from does, and then swapping it to a new word, all of a sudden isolates everybody who doesn’t know that we’ve changed words now. They become passe, literacy expired and our numbers get thinned and thinned and scattered and picked off and thinned and groomed by making all of these divisions. Swapping words is a tricky one. Sometimes I think it would be better if we could all just be a little offended and standardize our language before we lose that ability. 

You know when somebody tells you one of these things, like, you know, how, “you know if they’re lying if they look at the left or if they take a long time to answer” that’s hacked advice, riddled with risks of a confirmation bias. I take a long time to answer. I try to think things through before I speak, takes a lot of processing time to retrieve and render the files. It’s important which words you choose and I want to make sure I remember everything. 

There’s all these little things passed around like, “this is how you know not to get involved”, “don’t do this”, “do that”. All of these cheap overdrawn cliches, they’ve become so culturally prevalent and seem to demonstrate a result that suggests its efficacy to the unsuspecting user. Just ’cause it works up front doesn’t mean it doesn’t have this time release effect of doing real damage. People are being encouraged by their therapists to isolate themselves and isolate each other and it’s bad advice. Not just for the people you isolate. To cut one off from the herd is in many situations, it would be kinder to slaughter them. I’m usually glad I wasn’t slaughtered but, well, it doesn’t just hurt the person you cut out, it hurts the community. An inversion of how perpatrators protect their tactics and laws by protecting those who abide by them, regular people are betraying their own laws and people under the many influences of the perpatrators, who represent an increasingly disproportionate cohesive network. 

I had this problem back when I was trying to do advocacy work about sexual assault in the community that I was a part of. People kept turning their backs on the abusers, people who’d done harm. I’m like, “you went to elementary school with this person. go talk to them. Very few other people can like you can. go have conversation. It’ll be a lot easier than cutting this person out of your life forever and do a lot less damage.” I was not heeded on that or a lot of other things. I was wrong about some things but not that. It’s not too late, for the record. You can still go back and talk to your friends about what they did, because when you turn them out, all they do is go to a different town and do worse things and get better at it around people who are completely unsuspecting, when maybe you were right in your first assumption when you disbelieved the claims – they are a good person under the bad things they did or may not have done, too. You could find that out. You could find out if they’re falsely accused and keep them from being wrongly ostracized. /gestures suggestively at self. It’s not that hard and it is our job. Whose job is it supposed to be to protect our communities?

Anyways, I’m running out of time on that. I’ll talk more about the sharing of tactics because, well, we need to inoculate those from our culture 

Honestly, it’s really difficult for me to watch children play Fortnite without the anyone really recognizing the danger of kids taking in programming and giving up their numbers like that. Not knowing how those can be applied, one might sign a consent form, might click, “I agree” to terms and conditions, but, you know, misinformed consent is not consent, it’s coercion. I’ll admittedly retire to my own hacked media later, because I’m and addict and a hypocrite.  

This is all just “purely hypothetical for the sake of musical” because, how could *I* know (/holds up a sign saying “lab rat”)about all that if I wasn’t some master manipulator or criminal? The answer would be that I’m of the ones they practiced on, “for the sake of the musical”. 

Love you all.”