Insecure about being Insecure

“I’ve been incredibly insecure.
I was so insecure at a point that I couldn’t dance or dress myself or speak without fear that I was being offensive or apropriative.
I embodied these insecurities so much that I projected all of the judgements I ever experienced onto the world – as though to prove I cared.
I was offended all the time.
It was a balancing act into a negative feedback loop that eventually made me quite offensive.
I made others insecure.
I gave of my energy of consideration to how I or others could be disliked and thus became rather unlikeable.

Being insecure, I became unsafe.
If someone else “caused” me or others to feel unsafe, I would tell everyone, including when that person was me.
I made a very unsafe world for myself.
It made others feel unsafe.”

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